Drowning

I feel like I'm drowning some days - drowning in my life. I look at all the wonderful things I have and I want to smack myself for feeling this way - I have it better than most people I know. So why am I miserable? Okay, not completely miserable but some days I really feel that way.

I think it all started with weight gain when I was pregnant with Miss. Independent - it's like I lost the person I was and turned into this fat girl - and she won't go away. Every week I 'start over' with eating healthy and exercising because every week at some point I fall off the wagon. Every week I ponder the idea of taking weight loss supplements and every week I decide against it.

I just want to be who I was - with the life I have now. I'm stuck in a rutt and spinning my wheels.