Another Birthday Coming Up

My birthday is in 4 days - I'll be 36 years old. I feel older than that. I feel trapped in my life, in my body. I feel like I look old too.

All the time I have spent eating healthy, exercising, living a better lifestyle and I feel like I have nothing to show for it. I am still trying to lose belly fat from when I was pregnant the FIRST time.

I go through this every year but this year is different. I almost feel as if I am at the mid-way point for my life - yes, I know, that means I'll only live until I'm 70, but that is the feeling I have. I need to turn a new leaf and reach my goal this time.